Monday, December 29, 2008

Spice up your blog with a little rum and whiskey!

I'm going to invest in a balcony.  I always liked the idea of having a balcony.

Can we sail out to Mexico to steal all the tequila?  No?  Okay.

My blog posts never have a purpose but that's okay, I think it's okay, so that's all that matters.  

Lately, for some reason, listening to the wind has been calming.  Why?  Beats me.  


It seems to me
We're part time friends
Full time lovers
It's hard to juggle two careers
With so many mouths to feed


Kids these days...
Picking up addictions they don't even
Understand

I can tie my tie all by myself
Would you like to see?

I'm forgetting to see the point
Of where this is going
Between you and me
I know lately I've been shallow
But as of late 
You're too deep
I don't really quite get the message
That is being sent to me
Via a bottle lost at sea



Sweet summer night and I'm stripped to my sheets
Forehead is leaking, my AC squeaks and
A voice from the clock says, "You're not gonna get tired"
My bed is a pool and the walls are on fire
Soak my head in the sink for a while
Chills on my neck and it makes me smile but
My bones have to move and my skin's gotta breathe
You pick up the phone and I'm so relieved
You slide down your stairs to the heated street
The sun has left us with slippery feet
And I want to walk around with you
And I want to walk around with you
And be here with you and go

It doesn't really matter, I'll go where you feel
Hump for the breeze, get a midnight meal
I point in the windows, you point out the parks
Rip off your sleeves and I'll ditch my socks
Dance to the songs from the cars as they pass
Weave through the cardboard, smell that trash
Walking around in our summertime clothes,
Nowhere to go while our bodies glow
But we'll greet the dawn with morning blues
With purple yarns we'll be sleeping soon
And I want to walk around with you
And I want to walk around with you

When the sun goes down, we'll go out again
Don't cool off, I like your walk

I see the sound of the heat for the sound of the rain
It's easy to sleep when it whets my brain
It covers my rest with a saccharine sheen
Kissing the wind through my window screen
The restlessness causes that I cannot hide
So much of my mind that it spills outside
Do you want to go stroll down the financial street?
Our clothes might get soaked, but the buildings sleep
And there's no one pushing for a place
As we end up at an easy pace
And I want to walk around with you
And I want to walk around with you
I want to walk around with you
Just you, just you, just you.


yay new animal collective :D

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Oh Squalor Victoria, what HAVE YOU DONE?

Really now, let's figure this out, please?  20 isn't old, I don't know why I ever thought it was.  What will I be doing with my life?

Who will make sure I'm alright?

I'm hoping I won't have to pick up the pieces sooner then expected, that's not to ask for, is it?

I need a hobby.  I need an addiction.  I need something to get me out of this slump.  

Penguins.

It's 4:57 and I'm wondering if you're sleeping alright.  Are you cold?  Are you snoring like usually?  Which side are you on tonight?  The left or the right?  How many pillows and blankets?  I think it's cute when you sleep with all your clothes on but at the same time, it is a tad disappointing.  You're adorable when you're drunk and not hitting or biting me.  I miss you biting me.  

My dreams of late haven't been pleastant.  I was conned into getting a wife, settling down and having children.  Maybe the dream was right, I'm afraid.  

What City will want me when I'm older?  What will be my home?  Where ever it is, I hope there's a warm bed with cold pillows.

North Adams for New Years will it be all I plan it to be?  Please, let's not start puking.




Saturday, December 27, 2008

I have no clue what this guy is saying.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

I need a haircut, badly.

Maybe I should just shave my head again?  I really liked how it looked, many didn't.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Frank Sinatra
Billie Holiday
Johnny Cash
Weather Report
Fats Waller
Bing Crosby
Elvis Costello
Miles Davis

You don't need no more.


Sunday, December 21, 2008

We're going to Coney Island, Baby.  Tom Waits said, that's why.  

It'll be a slow show this upcoming Friday but that's okay, as long as we get paid to keep the food on the table for next two weeks. 

What The Fuck Am I Talking About?


Yes, I'm well aware of the things I've said.
I even remember all the stuff 
People claim I said but no,
I won't let it get in the middle of things.
Why?
That's just not how I do things.
If you were to read my instructional booklet,
Nothing of the sort would be found within
Those 59 pages...five of those are warranty.
But where was I?
Oh yeah,
Lately my mind has been filled with dreams,
Thoughts and ideas of you and I
Sitting at a table outside of a restaurant,
Ordering food, laughing, talking about the
Old times.
When we were young and dumb,
Not even a clue with what was goi......

That's too cliche, I'm starting over.


The Berkshires,
They're far from cliche.
I could picture something going on there
An untold love story
Or a ravage slasher film
That would laugh up a storm.


Heisting it up since 1988

So you know, 
Driving with the top down
Isn't such a bad idea.
Making those long windy turns
While the sunrises
Maybe we can catch a movie
Maybe we can catch the show
But before we go and take off
On this venture to Vermont
Can we please
Switch out that tape in your car
Because I'm tired of listening to
The same old Frank Sinatra
Collection and your CDs of Guster
Seriously, if I have to hear Guster
One more time, I'll swirve the wheel
And shoot us right off the mountain.
It's Tom Waits' time to shine instead.








Thursday, December 18, 2008

Get out of my dreams.  That's not asking for much.  It's truly being to sicken me.  

"Yes, I think we've met before."

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I like how that looks.



Sunday, December 14, 2008

Season is over, how was the finale?

The writers are back to work trying to figure out where the next season will go.  

A main character is leaving and the potentional setup for a new one is very near, well it is no potentional setup, it's already concrete.  Setup in the previews.

But really now, what's to come?  How many new characters will there be?  What will be the crazy antics?  Will he finally get his shit together and come out on top on the subjects that truly matter?  Who knows?  Obviously the writers do but yeah. 

I don't really have any predictions, just questions.  Actually hell, I'll try and answer my own questions.

Will Kansas come back into play?  Probably not, faintly if anything.
How's that Genie doing?  Going to continue to be the rollercoaster ride.
Writing?  Won't be around.
New main character? Definitely will be interesting.  

This upcoming season I feel won't be as good as this one, although this one was very lacking in many departments, so much confusion, stress and conflictations.  I don't think much will be answered in the upcoming one but I do think this next season will setup a lot.  I mean, A LOT.  You know me, I'm a die hard fan, so I can't wait.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Post number 69

I should be working on a project but I prefer to do nothing instead.  That's how I roll.

I'm going to waste away the night listening to spoon and thinking of you.  Rocking back and forth in my chair, tapping my feet to the beat.  La de da de da de da da da do.  

Will I be here for New Years?  I really don't know.  I'm just going to continue to move along until I know where I want to go.  

Blow out the candles for me, please?

There you go again.

Pale skin, mm, yellow dress, high heels.
Let's start a band with a horn section, you can be lead vocals, I'll be the walking bass line.  Joey will have to learn to play something more than power chords and the rest of our crew will fill in the drums, trumpet and flute.  It'll be perfect, you'll see.

AH CRAP BUDDY AIN'T ON THIS HARDDRIVE.

Let's just go back and reconstruct everything I've said.  Pretend it never happened, okay, willing to try that?  No?  I didn't expect you to.

You seem locked behind that door, try to figure it out.  How did you even get in there?


I let it go on too long and I forgot what I really meant to say, it feels like I'm dying, yeah it feels like I'm lieing and I don't even know the truth.





Friday, December 12, 2008

Ooga booga!  I hope I get to spend New Years with you.  I miss sharing that day with someone I love.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Do I buy it...yes or no?


:/

Monday, December 8, 2008

Where did all this frustration come from? We're going to travel out to sea About 31 knots in Until you're unable to see The land from which we came. There'll only be you and me and I hate to sound cliché, But that's apparently the only way You'll ever listen to me, Alone on a boat with no one else To distract you. Keep the rhythm in your life; Snap your fingers to the beat Like it's a song by Queen, Caviar and Cigarettes. Present yourself like your work; Dress up fancy like we're going To the opening of a VIP Art Gallery, Sol Lewitt's Final Piece. Keep your head up high; The war won't last as long as The General says. Be careful with that quick fist; Rome wasn't built in a day But London was most certainly Burned down in three. Despite what you think, I'm always listening. I'll probably never understand What goes on inside of your brain But, just like the ocean's current We'll have to deal with it when it comes. There's no way to stop every Sailor From drowning but, There's definitely a way to Prevent the majority If We Don't Panic...

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I played with a Kitty tonight.  I really want a puppy or kitten when I'm on my own.

I'm happy because of all the little details in Life like fixing the bottoms of jeans so you don't rip them even more.


Friday, December 5, 2008

Orange Juice and Cigarettes
That's the life for me.

City view apartments
Dirty Water Dogs
That's the life for me.

I want to have multiple homes
In different parts of the World
For each season.

Winter in Australia
Summer in the Caribbean
Spring in Japan
Fall in the American Berkshires

Let's get a cup of tea in London
Possibly in a random alley
Get a slice of pizza 
In one of the five boroughs of
New York City
Maybe get bombed on sachi
While the lights of Tokyo 
Penetrates our zen

I miss all the days which have become a blur
Movies during a rainy sunday
Tickle sessions which led to kissing sessions
Which led to well you know...

The way you can wrap words and people 
Around your fingers
Makes my stomach twist
Help me understand this feeling

Mountain Dew Ew

Orange Juice yum yum num num
You could have been a pirate.

The weather today was poopy.

One day you'll see my dance, laugh and sigh,
"That's it?"
Told you I was nothing special.

I miss my Penguin, Octopus and Lion.

I've been talking in circles, angles and all sorts of ways
Sideways, Upways, Downways, Longways, whatever
The fuck Willy Wonka was talking about
In his crazy chocolate nuthouse.

I'm afraid of being alone over the break.
Winter Depression is the Worst Deprssion.
Damn you Santa.
Damn you Jesus.
Your gingerbread lane is merely chocolate
With moldy center.

I miss my diner, it bothers me they're no
Longer open 24/7.

Let's go to a Tool concert and do massive amounts of drugs and hope we never wake up in time
To catch our train back.

















Thursday, December 4, 2008

Morning Bells
Wakey Wakey
Details Details Details
There's a stain on the wall.
I can't believe I never noticed before.

I know I probably come off
As distant
Lost
Gone
On the wrong train
Heading the complete opposite way
But I'm here
In the now
I'm listening
I'm watching
I'm picking up on all the little details
The way you're laughing
Standing and the awkwardness in your eyes
You're not leading the conversation
And I find that cute.

There's several rings on your fingers
Each has a story whether it be
From your mother
Or at a dollar store
There's a story behind everything
And I'll want to know one day
But for now, I'm quite satisfied
With just knowing they're yours.

I don't know where I'll be in a few months
Maybe in the same spot I am now.
I can't even predict where you'll be
In the next few months.
I hope you'll be where you are now
But who really knows?
Things change
Things happen every day
And when I think about it
When I rethinkg this past week alone
I'm very glad to know 
Nothing happened to you
And my World would have stopped
If something had.

I really hope you learn piano some day
Play a few bars
While reading your poetry
Become a song writer
For the new teenage bimbo
She'll vocal your words off the papers
You submit
And I know you won't ever be pleased
With how it sounds through microphone
But when I hear those words
But when I read those words
I'll just be thinking of your voice
Telling me the story of what's currently going
On in your life.

I never want to be re-introduced to you
By a friend of a friend.
I won't pretend and lie,
I'll tell them yes, we've met before.
But maybe, if that does happen
There'll be a positive output.
A fresh popped cork from a new 
Bottle of champagne.
I'm not even sure if I'm speaking
Metaphorically anymore
But it's the future
So there's no concrete way of knowing
Until the day comes.
But I just want to stress
I don't want there to be days
Where we're ignored.

Teddy Bears.
Teddy Bears.
I could use one right now
Well, I'd prefer a Penguin.



Something Is Hiding Behind Its Eyes

I remember baking ginger bread cookies
And using icing to give the ginger men frowns
In preparation of the feasts.
When I played G.I. Joes
I acted out the scenes in between war
Because it is there the true soldier comes out.
Snow Angels always seemed incomplete
To me,
Just lying there on ground.

You always said to me
"I'm going to design the city skyline,
You'll see."
I'm not one to doubt
And I never like to point out the obvious but
You're caught in your tornado of a World
Convinced everyone needs your breath
So they can breathe.
Well, sugar,
Maybe one day,
You'll see this city isn't big enough for me.

There's always a hidden message.
Read between the lines.
See what's roaring inside my eyes.
I want you to go to the library
And seach each book
Until you find a folded piece of paper
That a boy wrote for a girl
Back in elementary school.
Some crushes die and some live on
Doing the impossible.
Settling down and starting a family.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

poetry portfolio

Where did all this frustration come from?


We're going to travel out to sea
About 31 Knots in
Until you’re unable to see
The land from which we came
There’ll be only you and me and
I hate to sound cliché
But that's apparently the only way
You'll ever listen to me
Alone on a boat with no one else
To distract you

Snap your fingers to the beat
Like it’s a song by Queen
Caviar and Cigarettes
Dress up fancy like we’re going
To the opening of a VIP Art Gallery
Sol Lewitt's Final Piece
Keep your head up high
The War won't last as long as
The General says
Rome wasn't built in a day
But London was most certainly
Burned down in three

Despite what you think
I’m always listening
Never forget what we discussed
Out in sea

Seasonal Home-front

We're moving out to Autumn
To get away from this heat
The leaves are coming
But they're going to have to
Adjust and change
To the cooler breeze
I'm leaving behind
All my bright colors
In exchange for a more
Natural look
Dark red
Dirty orange
And plenty of leather brown

Your mother wants to move again
This time to Winter
I told her I hear it's rough there
If you aren't prepared
And I don't know if I am
With this current economic situation
I'm not quite sure I'm generating enough
Heat warmth security
To make it through a dark white night
In the town of Winter
I don't know about you kids
But living off of cocoa
Doesn't sound too good for the bones

I knew Winter was a bad idea
Maybe we'll find a better life
Out in Spring
The money isn't needed as much
And we won't have to worry
About personal expenses
Involving entertainment
Since the local community
Is apparently pretty friendly
Lots of fields
Lots of flowers
Should be good for the muscles
Maybe Spring will be
Where your mother and I will
Retire

Back to Summer so it seems
Spring wasn't what it was
Made out to be
I miss this town though
It keeps me going
It keeps me moving
I feel like I have a perfect figure
Whenever I'm living in the town
Of Summer
I don't know why we ever left


Transit

Showtime!
I’m heading out to the NHP Train Station,
I don’t know why you didn’t pick Garden City,
To pick you up from what you’re currently
Describing as “My most unfortunate adventure
To the rest of the East Coast”
I say you’re overreacting,
The rest say I never give you the benefit of a doubt.
People should mind their own business,
Maybe I should take that advice too.

Marlboro Man helps me through the day,
Jack Daniels picks me up at night,
But you, you prefer no help.
You chose the rabid East Coast and
I chose the comfort of the South.
We’re two very different people
Sharing a similar World.
I find that idea amusing but yet
You find it agitating.
When will you learn,
Not everything works in your favor
And I think we both can agree
The NJ transit is a perfect example of that.
No one will disagree about the hectic arena
Coliseum, most call Penn Station.

Women aren’t everything.
When will you learn?
Friends before Lovers
Family before the Rest
Blood is thicker than Wine
Maybe one day you’ll figure it out.
Maybe one day in Penn Station
It’ll hit you like a ton of bricks
Or to be cliché, a train.
You’ll look so lost and confused,
Just like a tourist’s first trip to NYC.
Maybe one day you’ll realize
You’ve got all that you need
Back at home.



Pepper

Illustrations and drawings always
Seem to make Peppers
Perfectly smooth
With the trademark slight curve,
But in reality smoothness
Is far from the truth.
Bumps, bruises and nature’s
Individual details cover
The thin spicy vine of the salsa world.

Wearing a tomato type top
With the stem dropping out
Reminds me of a sombrero on top
Of a worker’s head,
Relaxing in the shade,
Tequila filling his mouth as his soul
Fills with euphoria from the local
Acoustic guitar.

Oh pepper,
You give my tongue the extra kick
Of hotness, emotion and lust
I need to perform the tango with
My love.


The Legend Says…

They were on a freight train
Heading for a hole in the wall
In some direction
Neither of them is aware of.
Two hobos filled with the blues
Sitting in the cold
Listening to rich man blues
Through a discarded record player.
They’ll never be top chefs
But wait, what is all around them!?
Vegetables, fruits, some meat too?
These two lost men must have
Ended up on a train heading to the rich
Folks on the South Shore.
The rest of the train ride was filled with
Laughter, jazz and the best
Vegetable and meat soup you’d ever find
On a freight train heading to the South Shore.
Cooked, created and loved the
Newman’s Own Way.
Even the homeless have good taste buds.



Profession

You’re brutal, fine chef.
What did the cow ever do to you?
Nothing, Kind Sir.
I just love the taste of tender meat.


Why do you cut those
Flowers and wrap them in a bow?
Because Mother Nature’s wardrobe
Is terrible, I’m merely helping her
Win the fashion show.


Your art makes men cry
And yet you’re a stone, why?
My parents carved me the way
I am today.
Hunched over and chiseled,
My art is a rock’s inner beauty.

Oh, fat cat.
It seems as though you’ve
Become a stray, how come?
The life of a cat is not one
You’ll ever come to understand.
Adopt another to continue
The chain of Master Vs Slave.

Lastly, I ask you Father,
Where did your crooked smile
And bent up anger stir from?
Despite what you know of my past,
You’ll never quite grasp the mere
Passion and Pain of a past lover’s
Soul I lost to the thunderstorm.



The Clown Says

Her father was a jester.
He was a joker.
Man with tricks up his sleeve.
Constant laughter.
I never found him funny.

He gave me a mug from
The circus
Shaped like a clown face,
“Use it for milk & cookies,”
I used it for rum & whiskey.
Frequent laughter.
I never found him funny,
In that way.
How could I, knowing
What he used to be, an emotional
Butcher
To my wife and her mother?

Hiding behind that makeup,
Twisted,
I see through the powder.
Bright red lips,
Covering lustful secrets.
I know she’s not just your
Co-worker.
When will you see Clown?
You’re not a dog.
I know you can learn new tricks.
Show me.
Amuse me.
I know you can make me laugh
In the way you’re supposed to
But only if you try not to act
So pathetic.

Please don’t send in the clowns
I’d rather watch the circus burn down.



Random Thoughts of Mine

Butterflies have always been
My psychologists in nature
Beautiful from afar,
Ravage and repulsive up close.

Emerald eyes.
Pink frosting dress.
Yellow rose.
I can never forget the date of
August 15th.
The night we threw out our contract
Of friendship
And decided to make a new one
Under the profession of lovers.

My mother fought a sailor once
To stop a tsunami.
You’ll understand when you’re older,
I’m no liar,
Just a tall tale teller.
I speak in riddles, mysteries and sometimes
Metaphors, distracting you from the
Main point of my story.

Why does the sky only shine for you?
Not that I’m complaining of course
But you just seem to always achieve
Success when it comes to calling out
The sun.
How frequent do you think
The world is allowed to complain?
Once a week?
Once a month?
Once every few years?
Never?

Who really knows where
These atoms are going.
By atoms, I mean my feelings of course.

The Importance of being Idle

Sometimes you should just
Step to the side.
Let the cannon ball fly past you
Instead of being the brave idiotic
Soldier, who stands his ground
And takes the black iron
To the chest.

Sometimes it is best
To let your lover go to rest.
Hand her over to God,
He’ll know what is best.

Sometimes the smartest move
You can make is by backing your
Queen up a few spaces.
Don’t let the enemy take what is
Most precious to you.
Don’t ever fall into that checkmate.

Letting the forest burn down
In hopes a thicker greener forest
Will grow, can possibly be
Best for all of you as well as
Mother Nature.
You’re letting her grow that beard
Back in thicker.


Grown Up

We used to sit on the kitchen floor
Playing with the alphabet magnets,
Calling each other names and
Debating over who was better at
Street Fighter II.
I don’t care what you say,
When I play as Ryu
You stand no chance.

We used to try our best to study mathematics.
You’d read under the stars
While I chose the district stop lights.
Now you’re majoring in philosophy
And I’m on my way to master marketing.
Where did we go right
In this world of mass confusion?
Was it the chemistry explosion
Or the extra credit in History?

We used to write once a week
But I guess everyone was right.
Everything changes.
Water will continue to boil
Even when you’re gone.
Last I heard you were in the Peace Corps
Training third world victims
How to read and speak ‘properly’
And if you care to know,
I’m currently Down Under,
Doing what exactly? I’m not entirely sure
But I’m needed here
But I’m wanted here
But I guess I just miss how things were.



Your Friend’s Address

The house is a hand me down only due to rent
Jenga, blues, puzzles and funk.
A little booze to go with your smoke.
Balcony cigarettes have above the garden
While a refrigerator sits on the porch.
These empty PBRs tell the story
Of a home away from home.
Gracing friends and foe
With good tunes, jokes
And course,
Meatloaf.

How couldn’t you love fresh grown squash?
Homemade soup and wine?
A couch so comfortable your back sinks in
And you won’t want to move?
The random little occurrences when your shirt
Matches the pattern around you?
Or the way everyone greets you despite the fact
Some of them may not even know you?
You’ll come accustomed
To a home away from home,
Whether you realize it or not
Because when you’re welcomed,
Why the hell not?

Just watch your step in that kitchen
Because sometimes
A game of darts can be dangerous
But not even close to how dangerous
It can be
When someone is trying
To slap that bitch
Like she owes him money.



Autumn Blues
We were stereotypes
Driving with the top down
Blasting the radio,
Listening to Elvis sing.

You told me
Your calendar marked
Off the days until you could die.
I never kept a calendar.

I still remember
When you asked me to the rooftop
A quarter past midnight.
Autumn roaring,
Shaking its orange, red, yellow
And brown mane.
The city rooftops couldn’t
See down far enough
To know what beauty
They were missing.

The moon and stars out,
On the roof
You were dancing in an
Emerald green dress
With no shoes.
Emerald green will always be your color.
Your every dance move went perfectly.
Bobby D, Sinatra and Cash
Brought out your
Autumn Blues.
We were stereotypes
With nothing to lose.

As I stand there
Half smiling,
In my Father’s tux
The city trains roaring
As I hold tightly
A bottle of our
Favorite pink champagne
Waiting for your kiss
And to make love
Confirming our status
As teenage stereotypes.



This Family Means All The More to Me

Scenery has never been my thing.
There's a house on a hill where a family lives.
Snow hasn't fallen for over seven years
But that's okay!
The family has no concern for Global Warming.
By the time the North Pole has melted
And Santa is swimming
In between the sky scrapers of Manhattan,
They'll be long and gone.
It's okay in the town of Sommerville,
Where all the county's sugar cane is grown.
They'll be long and gone when ice no longer exists naturally.

The scarecrow in the field
Was the most dressed
Member of the family
With the least intentions of a career.

You seem to be forgetting
What goes on the inside of a child's soul.
Mixtures of Crayola colors,
Fresh baked cookies, snow angels, scraped knees,
Hopes of finding four leaf clovers,
Bed time stories and imaginary friends.
I'm sorry you missed out on all of that in your childhood.
If it'll make you feel better,
We can go to the supermarket,
Arts & crafts shop and bookstore.
I'll bake the cookies, pack a meal,
We'll travel out West to the sunflower fields, s
Setup a picnic, paint the scenery
And read each other children's stories
Until it's time to leave.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I HAVE SO MANY SPELLING ERRORS, I'm going to try and ignore them.
Scenery has never been my thing.   There's a house on a hill where a family lives.  Snow hasn't fallen for over seven years but that's okay!  The family has no concern for Global Warming.  By the time the North Pole has melted and Santa is swimming in between the sky scrapers of Manhattan, they'll be long and gone.  It's okay in the town of Sommerville, where all the county's sugar cane is grown.  They'll be long and gone when ice is all gone.

When Sarah's father was young, he was the king of carrot flowers or so I've been told.  There's way too many rattle snakes in these fields.  Her mother would stick a fork right into daddy's shoulder.  Dad would throw all the garbage across the floor.  Sarah would hide away in her room with her best friend, Roy, lying on the floor counting all the fake glowing stars on her ceiling until she'd fall asleep in his tiny pale arms.

Drinking isn't for pleasure when you're older, it's about escaping the troubles the day brought along for the ride.  Mr. Jones always kept whiskey in his front overalls pocket.  Working the sugar fields was tiring.  Tobacco kept his muscles going while the whiskey helped shut off the part of his brain that always screamed "Go lie down and rest a while, check up on your pregnant wife."  Jones never showed much sympathny even for his own blood.

The scarecrow in the field was the most dressed member of the family with the least intentions of a career.  

You seem to be forgetting what goes on inside a child's soul.  Mixtures of crayola colors, fresh baked cookies, snow angels, scraped knees, hopes of finding four leaf clovers, bed time stories and imaginary friends.  I'm sorry you missed out on all of that in your childhood.  If it'll make you feel better, we can go to the supermarket, arts & crafts shop and bookstore.  I'll bake the cookies, pack a meal, we'll travel out West to the sunflower fields, setup a picnic, paint the scenery and read each other children's stories until it's time to leave.  

Let's not try to figure out everything at once.

I'm heading up North to catch some lobster for extra cash.  You're more than welcome to come but your new lover has to stay behind.  Your choice, hun.  Him and the innercity struggle or me and my open wilderness and all.  The offer won't be on the table for long.

If my parents start crying, than I'll a dig tunnel from my window to yours.  Yeah, a tunnel?  

You make me happy in all the ways I don't want someone to.  

And on the fourth night, I was walking home, chain smoking more than my lungs should.  I've been squinting a lot more lately and I don't know why.  Maybe I'm hoping I'll go blind so I don't have to sit back and see what's happening in front of me.  Ooh cliche, you would like that wouldn't you?

Babies.  

What do you want to hear?  Bears in a house eating someone else's food?  Princesses being saved by white knights?  Slaying dragons?  Slaying Trolls?  Putting humpty dumpty back together again?  I don't really know if I can stop the big bad wolf like I claimed many moons ago.  I don't know where to start, really, I'm sorry.

Oh olga, my dear, you know my wishes are sincere.

She loved to dance and sing.  Truly it was her heart rested, on stage but there were people in the World who loathed the idea of her becoming famous.  Greedy, yes.  Terrible, yes.  Twisted, oh most definitely.  The World is a cruel and unusual place, unfortunately for Layla, she would never be able to out run it.  

Pick my heart apart like the pedals on a flower.  It only hurts with every other tug.

Do you ever miss the days of yesterday?  Today's too short and tomorrow will be here before I know it and I'm so caught up in the days of the year that I forget what month my mother's birthday is in it before it's already long and gone.  

Wine.  She wants Wine for her birthday because it makes her legs go numb.

I can hear the dust coming off that old piano, when was the last time you cleaned it?  Really, when was the last time you cleaned it?  Twenty three years ago?

I don't mind sitting on this porch every day until you arrive home.  It's a price I must pay allowing you to run off to Kansas.

One day you'll be a poet, I just know it and before can realize what's going on, you'll be knees deep in prose.  

There she goes off into the sunset in a corvette she didn't even buy.  The wind trying to escape her hair while her life gets left behind.  A typical long island girl, crossing the George Washington, having no clue what she is getting herself into without daddy's american express.

I wish I could sing you a tune your mother would hum every night when your eyes closed.  I wish I could hold your hand and swing your arm just like your father used to.  I wish I could be there for you like your brother was when your grandmother left this world.  I wish I could be the lover like the guy before me obviously was before his unfaithful accident.  I wish a lot of things lately and I'm not sure why.  Maybe, I just want you to be happy.

Lemonade.  Pink Lemonade.  Pomegranate Lemonade.  Blueberry Lemonade.  You'll always be the ade to my lemon.  I don't even know what that means but it's okay, you laughed a little.

Hi.  Hello.  Howdy Mister.

I'm Mister Jones, you're Ms. Jones, no relation.  

Clap with the singer for awhile, it'll make him feel better and get the crowd going.  You know you miss being the center of attention, so get on that stage with him and show him how the magic happens.

Say Goodnight.  

Let's not try to figure out, everything at once.  

I know you never want to get married to the man you love the most, you're caught up in this dilemma of trying to figure out what is best.  So let me help you along the way.  You're spending too much money on products for your hair.  You should clean your car every once in awhile, it's been disgusting for as long as I can remember.  The outfits you go out in broad daylight wearing are always much better than the ones at night.  Smiling never hurt anyone.  

Let's move to the city together, the suburbs is obviously dangerous for our blood.  The stuck up house wives have been like parasites to your social life and you can't take it anymore, I've noticed your hair has been falling out, maybe it's time to see a therapist.

Mr and Ms/Mrs

Love is the remedy of the emotional cold

Can you hear it baby?  It's the white noise of my heart, crying out to you about nothing.  

Eyeshadow, used by men and women that want their eyes to be the light you die into.  Lame, I know.

Come on now, we've been waiting for THREE WHOLE HOURS, WHEN'S THE FRICKEN BUS GONNA GIT HERE?!

It'll get here when it GETS HERE!

Birds of a feather, flock together.  Or so I've been told by the National Geographic special that aired three mondays ago.  I'm not entirely sure who to believe anymore.  I can trust in these scientists of men about the menstrual cycles of ostriches and hippos or go listen to my local Priest about a virgin never having hers.  You tell me, who sounds crazier?

Johnny, what are you doing with that candy cane?  Be nice to Janey.

The Princess ran away from Home.  Her Romeo wasn't treating her like the Juliet she always pictured she'd be some day.  The hills are always bigger when you're at the bottom of them.  Climb Layla Climb to the top.  You can show them you're not like what they say.  

Does it feel like you're dying?

She woke up in a struggle.  Her eyes wide and pale as Snow White.  Beauty was out hunting for the Beast and Peter Pan ventured to Wonderland because Alice called out for some Merry Men but Robin never called back.  

I think I'm dying.  I think I'm dying.


Iran - Buddy

Hey Buddy, What is wrong?  After you waited so long.  How can you walk away?  You shouldn't care what I say.  You don't even know me.  Yeah, looks pretty good, I'd let you in here if I could But I don't really know how, still haven't figured it out just how I got in here.  Somehow they all got it wrong and they all seem to like it that way. And I let it go on too long and I forgot what I really meant to say, it feels like I'm dying.  It feels like I'm dying and you don't even know the truth.  Yeah sorry I laughed, I wish I hadn't done that I'm such a dick sometimes.  I haven't paid for my kind (?) and I want you to hear, Somehow they all got it wrong and that's how they wanted it to stay.  I let it go on too long and it's like it had always been that way well now I know, well I know about it I fought(?) and I know what you thought and its so hard to make it this far and I'm sure I could help you a lot but buddy, I THINK YOU SHOULD STAY WHERE YOU ARE I THINK YOU SHOULD STAY WHERE YOU ARE I THINK YOU SHOULD STAY WHERE YOU ARE because I'm dying, yeah I think I'm dying.  I think I'm dying.  I'm just fucking with you(?)

---

And so it seems to go we don't even know where we're going anymore.  You want to go North and I want to go South.  I'm not leaving so can we make a deal and head west instead?  I'm willing to bet they have a brewery just like the one we're heading out to.  

There once was a yellow Kangaroo.  He had not a care in the World and his fists were covered in red boxing gloves to show strangers he meant business.  Why can't I write a story no matter how hard I try?  

I'm a New Yorker, what can I say?  

Is it lame that my heart melts whenever I hear "She's Always A Woman?"  




Sunday, November 23, 2008

One last time 
SAY IT WITH ME
You'll miss the ventures
To the South
I'll miss the ventures
To the North
Maybe we'd be better off
If we met in the wetlands
Instead of the desert
Perhaps we should have went hunting
Instead of to the movies

Maybe I'm not much of a kisser
But you're not much of a lover
So I guess that makes us even 
Doesn't it?
Doesn't it?
Doesn't it?
Say it with me, doesn't it?
I don't know what I'm talking about
Anymoo :D

Cow in the sky!

Moo


:] 
Did you know?

My favorite color used to be blue
Now it's orange

I never space out
I'm just thinking too much

I wear a scarf to sleep

My first dream every night
Involves me being hurt

I can't remember the last time
I cried

I've felt an emotional blade
Far too often this year

I don't know what tomorrow brings
Besides laundry

I'd love to learn how to really cook

I want to go to Hawaii

I wouldn't mind working in a cubicle
If it meant a great window view behind me

Melatonin works better
If you think it will

My gloves don't smell the way
I want them to smell

My beard is growing more towards the right
Than the left

I can never say no to a cupcake

I used to have an obsession with
Beethoven and Mozart

My old room had a poster of the Sistine Chapel
Next to Jessica Alba

I miss Looney Tunes

I miss the simple days

I'd love to have a garden some day

I promise I'll throw a masquerade ball if I'm ever rich

I'm always training myself to not care for once

I'm thinking about finally getting my license next summer

If I get my license big road trip

Is it sad that on my 21st birthday I don't want to go out and get drunk?

I'd love to have a kitten or puppy one day

I really don't want to get married 

Kids are out of the question too

I wouldn't mind being that crazy Uncle though

I wish I could get locked in a room with nothing in it
But books so i could finally get all my reading done

Alice in Wonderland has such a strong place in my heart

I wish I were a kid again

My right shoe usually goes on before my left

You make me think there's something wrong with me

Penguins are the best animal

When I go to bed I don't like light...AT ALL

I've never made a succesful Gingerbread house

I could go for General Tso's Chicken right now

I miss Mr. Cheng

Banana is in my top ten list of word usage

I'd love to go back to Montauk one summer with friends

I think Australia has been calling my name for far too long

I'm a righty

I have to open soda bottles with my left hand though

I DON'T KNOW WHY

I'm a black belt

Dry heaving is one of the worst things in the world

I get random pains a lot
No really a lot, it makes me concerned

I wish my hair didn't stick to the brick wall next to my bed

I could eat like a billion hotdogs or pizza bagels

It's a meatball hero, not sub

Just now I thought of dinner at home and could smell it

I miss my dad's lasagna with the little meatballs

I miss using a deep frier for funsies

Miracle Berries are quite interesting

I'm ever so thankful for these headphones from my brother

I don't have a good sleep schedule

I miss going to hockey games

I want to go to another soccer game

I enjoy plane rides

But I hate heights

That's all I want to write for now

Say Goodnight!

Goodnight




Secrets

I always wonder if anyone knows my secrets
Or well, they're not really secrets
But just little things I do
Or have 
That no one has yet to acknowledge 
Or possibly notice

Recent things that come to thought

I wonder if they know:

They have their own spot on my buddy list
I always look up their stairwell when I walk by
Their book will be finished one day
I'm hoping one day I'll see them wear it
I'll miss them when they leave
I miss them that they're not here
Alone time is never alone time because my head doesn't shut up
I started because of you
How comfortable they are
How I rarely eat lately
I remember every little detail...
...And if I say I don't remember a person, name
Or event, I'm usually lieing
Chicken fingers and french fries will always be my favorite meal
Mozzerella sticks will always be my favorite appetizer
I wish I could make amazing nachos
I wish I could have chinese food right now
I wish I could start up a band
And then TOUR THE WORLD
I miss the simple times












Friday, November 21, 2008

And I need to call Johnson
Let him know
The oven is on fire
And his cookies
Will never arrive
I'm sorry Johnson
The cookies are on fire

The bathtub is overflowing 
I can't stop the faucet

If you learn how to play
The trumpet real well
You can join my traveling band
We'll dance and sing
Across the country side
You'll get paid five dollars a show
And eat for free
You can't beat that
Can you?


Come with me
Just come with me
Please?

If you'd like to know what's going on in my head 
I'll tell you now
I'm afraid
Worried about what's going to happen
What is being brought with next semester
I wish I could play acoustic guitar
I wish the cold didn't burn my skin like so
And I'm going to hope things turn out better
Than I'm planning
Maybe you'll stay
Maybe you will come around
And tell me how you truly feel
Stop being a bastard
We don't have time for that
Maybe I'll get in awesome shape
And become a super hero
Maybe everything will make sense
Through the new bushes
I'll have to travel around

Come on now
It isn't as bad as you're making it out to be
Stop overexaggerating
Her lips don't get as cold
As ice
But you claim that its a fact
You can't argue fact
But I know for a matter of fact
You're lying through your teeth

Stop lying around
On a Friday evening
There are things that to be done
There are people
That need to be talked to
And you're just going to sit around?
You're just going to wait around?
You're not passive
You're not someone that sits on the sideline
GET UP AND GO GO GO GO GO GO

So Hello to you
I know you can see into my head
I know you can tell me what's
Being pumped around with my blood
Let's dance
Let's dance
Let's dance and sing

My name is Tim
I was born on July 15th, 1988
That makes me 20 years old
My favorite color is orange
I'm a big fan of music, culture and 
Having an unknown sort of pride
In everything I speak
My personality comes off as always 
Having a map
But I'm pretty lost in it all
And I'm just trying to get a hook
Into everything that passes my way
So when the wind blows
It won't all go away

I'm emotionally lost
And keep digging myself a deeper hole
Things used to be simpler
Now they're just complicated
I'll learn something from this
I don't really know what
But I'll learn
She'll learn
And maybe the bystanders
Will as well

You're not a robot
But you can teach yourself
To never feel like one

I don't need no cigarette, baby
I'm filled with enough nicotine
I'm light headed enough
And my bodies already falling apart
Why should I speed up the process
Because you're outside being cold and alone?
I'll rub your shoulders
Give you my jacket
And if it all goes well
I'll shake your hand
But that's as far as I go
I'm sorry but that's it

Magically bored
On a wide street corner

UPPERS AND DOWNERS?!
INSIDE OUTSIDE!?
WHERE HAVE I BEEN?!
OUT OF MY BRAIN ON THE 5:15

I miss the Bass Guitar
I need to bring my amp up
So I can woo those women
Who don't understand a thing
About bad guitar playing











Monday, November 17, 2008

Hole punching in a straight line
Where did all those little circles go?
Loving is as loving does
Hold my hand tightly
As we cross the street
I don't want us to part


His bathtub was
Filled with shrimp, crabs and 
Octopus tenticles
The ones which never sold
From the seafood shop
Because we all know
They've been soaking in bleach
But if I know
You know
And all of them passing by know
Why don't they do something ?



It seems to be
We're going down stream
Which means this
We're heading in a southern
East or West
Going where
I'm not sure
Heading where
I don't know
But we're stuck together on this raft
Unless you'd like to fall off
And end your life.

Please oh please
Don't you see
We're just sailing away
On this blackened sea
Please oh please
Somebody save me

There once was a sailor
Who always kept one hand
In his pocket
And I don't know why
And I really don't know why
But he buried all of his gold
At sea
Rumor has it
Legend has it
His treasure chest filled with booty
And valuable pleasures
Still rests at the bottom 
But it's guarded by man eating sharks
Giant Squids
And Killer Whales


If we don't hurry now
We'll never make it
I always like to be there on time
To guarantee a good seat
I don't want to sit next to babies
And I'd rather not share a seat
With a man who doesn't know
Know how to hold his liquor
I can pick them out
I swear it
I SWEAR IT


She moved out to Kansas
To take care of a patient
I was told it was strictly business
My gut knew that wasn't her intention
In our room
Everything is just the way she left it
"I'll come back for it, I promise."
She was never taught how to lie well
But I guess that's why she went to medical school
And I went to law
Two very different people
Sharing a life
Maybe I was too greedy
Maybe she didn't care at all

----

Your side of the bed is still unmade
It's going to stay that way
Until you return from Kansas
Correction, if you return from Kansas
Oh well, loving is as loving does
And I guess Law school should have taught me
Well enough to never trust a stranger
You met off the street
Because all they're going to want
Is your money and then eventually
Walk out the door with your heart
Leaving behind the trust 
You valued ever so much



December is just a day away
You always told me 
The first snow of the season
Determined what the new year would bring
I never quite grasped that concept
But the young love we shared
Made me feel like I was open
To obscure thoughts of structure
Order and the world's true call


Maybe one day we'll meet
Face to face
In the city you were born
This time I'll bring the matches
And you're stuck with the loaf

When I'm with you
Nothing is ever said
Besides a question for a cigarette
Our eyes do most the talking
Our hands always fishing for our
Little lost secrets
I still don't know where you're from
But if asked 
I could tell anyone
Exactly where to touch 
To get a smile


---


The rubble just doesn't crumble
The way it used to
The sandbox is far from fun now

Oh come on now
You really didn't expect me
To move out to Kansas
You're a doctor
I'm a lawyer
Go take care of other patients
And forget about this one
I don't trade in hospitals


-----

Where did all this frustration come from?

I remember baking ginger bread cookies
And using icing to give the gingermen frowns
In preparation of the feasts

When I played G.I. Joe's
I acted out the scenes in between war
Because it is there the true soldier comes out

Snow Angels always seemed in complete
To me
Just lying there on the ground

Trying to picture all the twisted metal
From a car crash
Makes my brain throb 

-----

We used to sit on roof tops
Spit down on streets
Arguing
Over which Taco Bell sauce packet quote 
Fit better with our relationship


You chose the North
I chose the South
But we both knew
Our hearts lied in the West

For my birthday
You brought me out to the sea
And we played guessing games
Trying to figure out 
How many knots away
A mermaid or treasure chest might be


Where did all this frustration come from?

We're going to have to travel out to sea
31 Knots 
Until you'll be able to see
There's nothing out here 
But you and me
I hate to sound cliche
But that's apparently the only way
You'll ever listen to me

Snap your fingers to the beat
Like it was a song by Queen
Cavier and Cigarettes
Dress up fancy like we were going
To the opening of a VIP Art Gallery
Sol Lewitt's Final Piece
Keep your head up high
The War won't last as long as
The General says
Rome wasn't bult in a day
But London was most certainly
Burned down in three

Keep your head on straight
Mostly for me
That's all I'm asking
Stay strong 
For me



-----

We're moving out to Autumn
To get away from this heat
The leaves are coming
But they're going to have to 
Adjust and change
To the cooler breeze
I'm leaving behind 
All my bright colors
In exchange for a more
Natural look
Dark red
Dirty orange
And plenty of leather brown

Your mother wants to move again
This time to Winter
I told her I hear it's rough there
If you aren't prepared
And I don't know if I am
With this current economic situation
I'm not quite sure I'm generating enough
Heat warmth security
To make it through a dark white night
In the town of Winter
I don't know about you kids
But living off of cocoa 
Doesn't sound too good for the bones

I knew Winter was a bad idea 
Maybe we'll find a better life
Out in Spring
The money isn't needed as much
And we won't have to worry
About personal expenses 
Involving entertainment
Since the local community
Is apparently pretty friendly
Lots of fields
Lots of flowers
Should be good for the muscles
Maybe Spring will be 
Where your mother and I will
Retire

Back to Summer so it seems
Spring wasn't what it was
Made out to be
I miss this town though
It keeps me going
It keeps me moving
I feel like I have a perfect figure
Whenever I'm living in the town
Of Summer
I don't know why we ever left







































Sunday, November 16, 2008

Randomly I decided today
I'm going to give away
All the things in my collection
Which shine the color of red
Red like the veins of your motherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr's
Wrist?
Wait No
No
NO
NOOO ALL WRONG LETS START AGAIN

I went down to the Four Aces Pub
Trying my best at a hand of 
The bouqet of flowers
That rested ontop of the bar top
Maybe you'll go away
And fall away
Until I don't like where this is going
I don't like where you're going
I don't like that we can never say
Hey would you like to dance
Without it being that awkward
Bubbly feeling
Only teenagers get at their prom


Just talk from underneath
Like singers from the chest
Your doctor always said
There's a ballet dancer in your legs
Keeping the rhythm going
Down to your toes

Don't fall in the snow.


I don't think we click the way
We used to
Your gears are too short
Mine are just rusted.


My friends and I all went to see
What's going on in the valley below
Maybe there's a festival
Maybe there's a fair
Maybe nothing at all

We'll drive with the top up
Because Rachel doesn't want leaves
In her hair
And Bobby hates the feeling
That his hat might blow away
Plus no one really wants to know
Jason is blasting music
Most would say doesn't match the color
Of his skin
But it's okay we all have our own personal
Ways

There's a bottle of Jim Bean
There's a bottle of Rye
Whiskey Dry
Jack Daniel's on the table side
Sailor Jerry fell down the stairs
And no one knows why
The room is spinning
The room keeps spinning
And I can't seem to focus my two
Blood shot eyes

The Garden State is filled
With Toxic Waste
Thanks to Yours Truly
Go talk behind the waterfall
If you want to whine
Pink doesn't go well with bruise
And bruise doesn't go well with Maroon
So if you want to meet me at the butcher shop
It better be at noon
I'll have the ground beef
And don't forget the blood
My daughter wants hotdogs for dinner
But I think kielbasa will settle better
She's learning new foods
But her mother can't keep up
The bills are knocking
The collectors are coming
But that's okay
Because I'm here to say
I love beef.




And one day it'll happen
Maybe we'll cross paths
At a random art gallery
I know you have your ties
And I have my connections
Bumping into each other
Doesn't sound as crazy as I thought

Free Champagne
Free Wine
Cocktail Dress for you
Probably with one of those crazy
Sol Lewitt designs
Geometry was never my thing
Blazer for me
Fedora for me
Aquaman t-shirt underneath

Maybe this time
I'll call us a cab
Maybe this time around
You'll come home with me
Maybe 

----

You always said to me
"I'm going to design the city skyline,
You'll see."
I'm not one to doubt
But I never like to point out the obvious
You're caught in your tornado of a World
Convinced everyone needs your breath 
So they can breathe
Well sugar
Well suga
Maybe one day,
You'll see
This city isn't big enough for me.


Quicksand is my favorite
Kind of ground

You'll get picked up by the Garbage Man
Because you know where they're going
And that's your home at 5 in the morning.

Punch right into my skull
Please
For the sake of all that is cinnamon and bazil

Orange is far from your color
You'll see
You'll see
You got the monkey.




Monday, October 27, 2008

It's hard to keep track of you
When you're all over the place
Where'd the romance of 
Italian Sauce go?

Secretly I know you'd like to Post

Pack your bags my good ol' friend
We no longer need to travel?
What?

We used to sit on the kitchen floor
Playing with the alphabet magnets,
Calling each other names and
Debating over who was better at
Street Fighter II.
I don't care what you say
When I play as Ryu
You stand no chance.

We used to try our best to study mathematics,
You'd read under the stars
While I chose the district stop lights.
Now you're majoring in philosophy
And I'm on my way to master marketing,
Where did we go right
In this World of mass confusion?
Was it the chemistry explosion
Or the extra credit in History?

We used to stay in touch
But I guess everyone was right,
Things do change.
Water will continue to boil
Even when you're gone.
Last I heard you were in the Peace Corps
Training third world victims
How to read and speak 'properly'
And if you care to know, 
I'm currently Down Under,
Doing what exactly? I'm not entirely sure
But I'm needed here
But I'm wanted here
But I guess I just miss how things were.


-----

Your side of the bed has been cold
For the past few weeks
But I'm learning how to be a big boy
And not care.

I know you won't be there in the morning
To make me scrambled eggs
Just like you used to
But that's okay
I recently bought a cook book
And can make the best flapjacks
This side of town has ever seen,
Your mother would be proud.

-------------


Red drapes never bring out 
The gold in your eyes
Which is quite a sad thing to see
Because the tears seem to shine
What am I talking about?


----
It seems to me that what's in the rage
Is taking up different names

------

Come on now you really don't think
I was the one

We have to help Father bring
The refridgerator up the flight of 
Stairs
Otherwise his back is going to go again
And we both know what will happen
I know you don't want the belt
To come out again
But that won't get you to help
Will it?

------

For some reason he would never
Sleep on his bed
I could never put my finger on it
But he just prefered to sleep
On the floor with a comforter
Pillow and tiny blanket
For a minute there
I lost myself

-----

What's shocking to me is how easily
You've out grown yourself
Where did all the dinners in front of the TV
Go?
Why haven't you called?

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

Can you meet me at the dusk
Which leads to dawn
Maybe we can stop my breathing
While we're at it
Because I think the coyotes will call home
Soon if we don't prepare supper at the kitchen
Counter

Come on now son


Venture with me
Just for a tiny bit
Travel the Australian Outback
Dip to the New Zealand Sun
Don't worry about the time so much
Because when we're done
We can just hop over the line
Maybe towards the equator
Start the day over

You would tell me tales 
About the seven seas
And the potentional eighth
Even though maps don't say

Clark Gable once taught me
It's never what you got in your pants
But what ticks in your chest
The chemicals running
Up and down your spine
The electricity flying through out the brain
As well as what makes your soul burn
And no, he wasn't drunk 
When he told me this stolen lesson
But near the end of his Life
An old man's last act of class
Handed down generation to generation
Mostly through film
Also audio recording

Have you ever been to a spider's wedding?
The food is to die for.

Keep the remember in November.
The rain in April
And the lion's roar in March
If you don't keep the sun in July
There won't be the autumn fall 
For October and possibly September
What will August do if all the Watermelon
Stopped growing
And with it the pastel flowers of May?
January and December don't want to lose
Their snow so vote no on question eleven
Otherwise the terrorists will have won
And captured the love of February.
We all know June won't stand for that
With its Father's Day and all.









Sunday, October 19, 2008

Seriously now, we've gone over this a million times past
You don't remember how to love
And the therapist says probably never will
It's quite a sad theory in the World today
Where you can't achieve your dreams
Through physics, geometry or science fiction
I'm sorry kind deer
But your mother is gone
The hunter decided it was time
To have a healthy meat filling lunch

We're got on our hands a concentration moon
And I don't know where it's taking us
But most likely not any place soon

Diet Pepsi can on my desk

The rhythm of funk isn't in the soul
Not in the blood or the brain
But in the bones
It's the bone structure which gets you to move

You used to laugh about
All the times long ago
Now you don't talk so loud
Now you don't seem so proud
About your next meal

How does it feel?

You used to laugh about


My therapist keeps telling me 
If you could open up my chest
My heart would be on fire
I told her she was unoriginal
Far frommotivated and overpaid
Not good enough for this Earth

No reason to get excited


Let's meet in the grocery store
No the shopping mall
How about a quarter past five?
You bring your kids
And I'll bring the cart
We can pretend we're married
And have always been
Your husband won't know
He can't find out
As long as he's at work.

Carry me home.

Strawberrys make the best kinds of apples.


I've been thinking this out for quite sometime
Maybe we should throw it all behind
Move on with our lives
Call it quits because really, truly
In the end, who gives a shit?
You'll lose my check, salary, bills
And classy upbringing
But that is okay, it is okay right?
I'm moving out to Long Island
To retire and live the Billy Joel kind of life
Drunken nights
Furious fights
Maybe crashing a car or two
They say those waters aren't what they used to be
But that's okay because 
I don't won't have people who count on me
If people ask just tell them I'm patrolling Atlantis 


What did all the good Presidents say?
How do I protect such a great nation?
Is there anyway to make the World a better place?

My words are those of third graders
And I don't mind

If I have the choice to dine whoever I please
I'll invite Hemingway, Poe and maybe Dante
No I lied.

















Tuesday, September 30, 2008

if you are going to embark on a generic, self-righteous soliloquy like the last message, don't expect me to dignify it with an answer.


Tuesday, September 16, 2008

NO PIANOS!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Jim Henson's dead.  It's a sad day for Muppets everywhere.  

Maybe it's the nicotine talking.  Maybe it's the booze but I'm in quite a feeling of euphoria. 

You'll grow up one day and look back at this all, shake your head and shout "What were you thinking!?"

We used to spend hours sitting on the kitchen floor in front of the refridgerator playing with the alphabet magnets. 

When will you leave me?


When you finally have the love of your life at your side, always remember, if they're ever going to leave you, you can be certain it won't be on yesterday.





Monday, September 8, 2008

I'm not a big fan of family reunions
Never have 
Never will 
Now, don't go around telling the press
I'm against family
Or I despise my family
Because that's far from the truth
Truly far from the truth

You just need to realize
I'm more about meeting in smaller pieces
Tiny moments spread across the Calendar
Where each different month and season
Is filled with the memories of potato salad,
Watermelon, bickering, resentment and 
Hatred towards one's own blood line

When we all look back at the day's past
Most will say, "That's my family for ya,"
But not me
I'll never say or think that

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Please don't forget
This bottle of water isn't carbonated
Has a crisp, fresh taste
Filtered naturally in the great land of Maine
How could you resist a bottle of delicious Water?
How dare you rely on coffee to keep you going.
Why would you choose Johnny Walker,
Jack Daniels or Jim Bean instead of Aquafina


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Showtime
We're heading out to the NHP Train Station
To pick you up from what you're currently
Describing as "My most unfortunate adventure
To the rest of the East Coast"
I say you're overreacting
The rest say I never give you the benefit of a doubt

Marlboro Man helps me through the day
Jack Daniels picks me up at night
But you, you prefer no help
You chose the rabid East Coast
I chose the comfort of the South
We're two different people
Sharing a similar World
I find that idea simply amusing
You find it aggitating
When will you learn
Not everything works in your favor
And I think we both can agree
The NJ transit is a perfect example of that

Women aren't everything
When will you learn?
Bros before Hoes
Friends before Lovers
Family before the Rest
Maybe one day you'll figure it out
Maybe one day in Penn Station
It'll hit you like a ton of bricks
The excitement the thrill
You'll look so lost and confused
Just like a tourist on their first trip to NYC
Maybe one day you'll realize
You've got all that you need
Back at home









Wednesday, September 3, 2008

College

Despite cutting my finger, burning cookies and my iPod breaking, I couldn't be happier with life.  I'm truly happy.

It couldn't get better.


Saturday, August 30, 2008

Packing 2:58

I don't want to pack. I don't want to leave at 9am. I don't want to do anything right now. I'd like to freeze time and re-think the past year over and over. Figure out what went right, what went wrong. What happened? What should have happened?

Theory. They can drive a man mad. Angry. Furious. But theory leads to creation and testing of the waters. I want to do that. Test the waters. Maybe there's sharks in the waters. I hate sharks. I fear sharks.

Let's break the glass. A Night of Shatter. In Honor of the leader. He's behind blue eyes.

Color. Colour. Color. Colour. Color. Colour. Gray. Grey. Gray. Grey. Gray. Grey.

I'm being told Color is correct but Colour is not. Gray and Grey are both proper. You're not proper so straighten the fuck up.


I should have finished honors ago and passed out. Hours of sleeping. I left this place a mess. I'd like to take my lamp and clock but it ain't happening sir. SIR. SIR PLEASE.

What are things I need to get?

Sticky Notes. Alarm Clock. Water. Crackers. A Soul. Dignity. Pens. Paper. That's all I can think of off the top of my head. Listerine. Toothpaste. Toothbrush! Paper Towels? Pretzels. Penguins.

Marlboro Red. Just flows so well. Marlboro Red. Marlboro Red. His tie was Marlboro Red. His shirt was Marlboro Red. His shorts Marlboro Red. His hat Marlboro Red. His soul Marlboro Red. I feel like Marlboro Red. The walls are Marlboro Red. He's smoking Marlboro Red. She's buying Marlboro Red. They invested in Marlboro Red. I want you to go buy me Marlboro Red. This is message from Marlboro Red. Marlboro Red wants you. Marlboro Needs you. Marlboro commands you. You want Marlboro Red. You need Marlboro Red. You desire Marlboro Red. This isn't a subliminal message because I'm being upfront. STOP CRAVING CIGARETTES ALREADY.


You like to collect sticks. I find marbles. Marbles = Marlboro.

I'll leave all my jewel cases for you to go through later on in Life. You'll go through each one and I'll leave games, puzzles and clues on how where my treasures buried. It'll take you years. Ages. Centuries. This is what you get for making me a target.

Some people wink with their whole face. Putting all those muscles into good use. At least I hope it's good use. Maybe it'll result in some passion between the two of you. You'll make love. You'll make babies. You'll make a home. You'll make enough cash to oil up the war machine. Society Security hun, that's where it's at.

Santa came down the chimney the other day. I was shocked and surprised but I applauded anyway. Dad deserves the praise for all the trouble he went through climbing up on the roof in that fat suit.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Airport

I try my best to keep my promises. I truly do. So when I say I'll be waiting in the airport for you on your return, I mean it. I really mean it. It's one of the few things I'm serious about right now in my life.

Who do I turn to ? The brother who turned his back? The sister blinded in loyalty? The best friend who only has high hopes? I need someone with neutral coat of arms to tell me what to do. Was my theory right? Where are the scientists I hired to disprove my lack of reason? They probably too moved out to Kansas. Americana.

Chemistry. A man once said to me, "Boy you're going to carry that weight a long time." I smirked. I was well aware I'd get stuck with the load of the World's weight for years to come, but I knew that when I took the job.

Will she ever think of me when the vinyl we called ours begins to play? Will she have to leave the dance floor when the band sings our song? What will her gentleman do? Curse my name? Curse all I've done? Come find me on the East Coast of the Americas or Fly to the West Coast of the European Home front? I'm placing a bet down on burning all I've done. He'll stop at nothing to find the bridge connecting his lover and me only so he can burn it to the ground. It's not about economics he'll say. It's not about the social structure you two have built, he'll scream at her. "The issue is alliance and I don't trust his government, never have, never will! As he travels East, we will travel West!" What a sad boy he truly is. The World is round, not flat, catch up in the times.

Lollipops, Teddy Bears and Owls.

Will we ever meet face to face? In the epic tales of Life, most rivals end in a Duel. The most recent rivalry consisted of the Red, White and Blue against the Hammer and Sickle. Never face to face but just shouting from afar. Shouting builds fear. He has the home front. Most people with home front think they have the advantage. I never train on the home front. My advantage is instinct. My advantage is words. My advantage is I am everything you ignore. My advantage lies in the bushes behind your house. Why tarnish a man yourself when you can simply rip apart and destroy his image which leaves him for the dog civilians to devour. Why should I have all the fun?

Preview, Compose, Edit. You bring the piano, I'll bring the candles. We'll dine and dance the night away. No butlers or fancy champagne though.

Remember, this is not good-bye but just good night. I'm going back to Massachusetts, you're heading West. The best thing in the World is to love someone and they love you back.

Swing dancing. I've never been able to do it. I keep having dreams, you asking me to teach you. I'm sorry but I can't teach you.

I should be packing. I should be packing. I should be packing. I should be packing. I should be packing. Packing away. Packing the night away. You say goodbye. I say Hey. We'll pack the night away. Oh I can't hold you anymore. The time is almost gone. You're sad and I say Hey, tomorrow is another day!

Let's open a shop in the middle of Arkansas. We can settle clocks, forks and table cloths. I'll do stock and repairs. You run the register and maybe we can throw together a summer fair. All the kids can come. All the relatives too. We'll put up flier in our local penny saver and see how it goes. Funnel cake, Snowcones and cotton candy. Clowns, balloons and water gun games. It'll be great. We'll be happy. Everyone will shout, "We're having so much fun, I don't care about anywhere else."

Labels for this post: Memory, Emotion, Giants, Roller-coasters, Fish, Fun, Favoritism, Cooking Classes and Magnetic Pulses.

Come on and dance with me. Take off your shoes, kick your socks to the side. We're going to have a real good night.


No guys ever really care.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Fuck The Academy

I'm tired of the same ol' same ol'. I'm disgusted with the way you present yourself and expect us to give pity. I walked across the street today and felt the pride of my innerchild. I know that tomorrow will bring something but what it may be is really beyond me. I'm well aware that you hate me for who I truly am and that's what I love about you. You'll tell your children about me when you see my face in the paper. You never liked me much but your parents couldn't get enough of me, and that says a lot about who you are today. Thank you for that kick in the wrong direction.

Ugh...Fuck the Academy.

I don't want to know what you did yesterday or the day before. The weeks that have been building up in your life obviously made and crarfted what you are today, who you are today. That's all that matters to me right now. What I'm blabbering about of course is that you're standing here with me today. Fuck yesterday. Fuck the day before yesterday. Today you're with me. Maybe tomorrow you'll leave and if that's the case, so be it. People tend to hold value in the length, the quantity, while I'm a man of quality. Who said you have to be with someone for years to love them? I say love at first sight is enough in my book. Believe in me when I say you're the most beautiful person in my life right now. Oh and there's the obvious...

Fuck the Academy.

Wow. You really need to start lifting those weights. I can't help but notice you're constantly struggling with the same things in your life that I am. Maybe we should work together. Let's become a pair. We can fight crime any day of the week. There is one catch though, you will be the sidekick. You'll be the one that I never give recognition to. The newspaper will rarely capture your essence in photos. We both know the public will not care for you and that's fine by me. You'll have to learn to adjust and accept the fact that you're half the person I am. Get used to it, sidekick. We're here to follow the norm, not break it and set our own example. If we did that, that'd be pure blasphemy.

Oh you know where I'm going with this...

Fuck The Academy

"I hope you come crawling back to me with flowers and maybe even chocolates, pleading for me to take you back. I want to see you beg for my forgiveness and love. I'll lie and say you leaving to find yourself across the Globe really broke my heart and I missed you so very much. But the truth is I'm glad you didn't find what you were looking for, you were wrong Tim Hughes and nothing makes me happier than to be the one to tell you that.

You're wrong Tim Hughes, You're Wrong."

I always expect the worst in Life, so it's all good.

No matter where I end up, No matter who I end up with, I won't stop saying…

Fuck the Academy.

A man on the street I had never seen before came up to me and said "Sir, I think you dropped your wallet." I don't even have a wallet but all I could do was smile, nod and say simply "Why thank you, I can't believe I didn't notice. Is there any way I could repay you? Oh I know!" I reached into that wallet and started to flip through the bills. Five hundred thrirty three American Dollars. "Here, take this fifty." He declined but I insisted, "Trust me, giving away this money doesn't phase me in the least bit." That's when it hit me how sad of a human being I've become. I don't even care that I'm giving away someone else's money. Self pity is something that's not supposed to be on the school agenda but always ends up getting taught anyway. Such a shame...

Fuck the Academy.

Distance, they say it's a killer. To travel the distance it really takes strength, endurance and concentration. I have none of that but I still want to try. Despite what everyone has told me my whole life, hope can succeed. You say, "Hun, move on, there's someone better than me out there," and I understand where you're coming from but sometimes the best isn't what's right for you. Maybe there is somebody truly perfect around the corner from here, but why live a perfect life? It's the imperfections that truly make the World a beautiful fucked up place. So what do you say? Come on now, say it with me...

Fuck the Academy.

It'll never be the same and you know that. Despite your hatred for this shirt, I will wear it proud. This hat has rested on my head for years and I know you never liked it. I'm well aware orange isn't a color of grace. I also have learned over these past years what drives you crazy and that dearest, is me. We'll never be perfect for each other and that's what I love. It brings a smile to my face after every fight we have because it proves we're alive. If we truly didn't give two shits for one another, you'd be gone, I'd be gone. We're two very different people coping with one another all for that thing we cursed long ago, love. You said you'd never experience it and I said I'd never share it. Where did things go right?

Oh hun, by the way...

Fuck the Academy.




I love these.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

King of Carrot Flowers

Carrot Flowers look nothing like carrots. Carrot. It's one of those words that in my mind looks spelled wrong no matter what. Don't know why.

I don't care. I'll wait outside your window for you through all kinds of weather. Fog, Drizzle, Rain, Freezing Rain, Ice Pellets, Hail, Snow and even the dreaded Graupel!

Did you know the Golden Gate Bridge is painted International Orange?
Subway Poster

Friday, August 22, 2008

Blue lamp shine so bright...

I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink. I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink.


Oh yeah. I don't have anything to say or write. Oh yeah so let's dance the night away.

Words apparently only got in the way.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Bananas, what are they truly made out of? I'll show you if you really want to know. It's going to be a secret though, you have to promise to never tell mommy!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Seasons

I miss Autumn. It's my favorite.

I came and I saw, I conquered all.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

You'll know the deed is done when you're all alone...

I'm no longer employed.

Tornado! Tsunami! Typhoon!

The three brothers of wind!

Let's set sail to the sea. Go where ever the wind takes us. Conquer, pillage, plunder and yearn!

Switchboards.

I have a circuit board out in my shed if you'd like to take a look. It'll only be a few minutes.

My cousin sold his soul to the devil for artistic talent. He painted, painted and painted his years away. Every three months he'd attempt to sell his paintings and works to everyone he could find. No one would buy. It drove him mad. Why wouldn't anyone buy these magnificent works of art?! The World must have become tasteless. My cousin continued to paint and paint until he was at 100 paintings. Not one was bought.

The rejection got to him and he killed himself. The very next day, his paintings were sold.

What a dirty liar you are, Sir.


What would you do?

Saturday, August 16, 2008

SHACKLER'S REVENGE?!

NEW GUNS N ROSES?!

YES! YES! YES!

I'm married to consumerism, plastic and the sun...

If they cut me open and let all my blood drain into a bucket so they could test it, I'd bet most of my blood is Diet Pepsi. Seriously. Most of it. A majority of it. Vast amount. Enough that they could fill cans with it, sell it to the masses and the only difference would be the color. Taste the same.

Calling All Cars, Stop Being A Bunch Of Donut Eating Fat Bastards.

I hate how doughnut is the proper spelling.

I'll never put together the entire puzzle but that's okay, I've accepted that. I prefer having something incomplete.



Whether you like it or not, you're stuck with me. I know, I wouldn't be happy in your situation either but it's just destiny. Fate. Karma. The final frontier in Life's course. The eternal bond of happiness and sorrow. God and Satan. We're caught in an unbreakable bond.
Sucks, doesn't it? Knowing I'm your other half. We both know it'll take guts to get rid of the other which can only result in a loss of mental stability. Such a shame how the ying yang works. I don't think it meant to cause such harm.



Did you hear the news? The oranges won the championship!!! New World Champions! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT LADIES AND GENTLEMEN BUT THE UNDERDOGS, THE ORANGES, HAVE PROVED THE MASSES WRONG AND CLAIMED THE VICTORY THEY DESIRED ALL SEASON. You simply have to be hear to feel this raw emotion!

I want you so badddd guitarriff.

Let the engine lube itself up. Don't waste your time with the grease. The raw chemical engineering of science will show us the way. Oh and if you weren't told by the one at the door, think too hard and you'll forget where you are. Don't think enough and you'll forget where you are. Think just right and well, oh boy, oh son, you'll find out, won't ya? Wontcha?! I always warn the boys in red to watch the bullets. I always tell the men in green keep your eyes forward with your hands around the steel. Years ago before the boys wore blue, gray was the choice of style. Not grey, don't you ever mention grey around me. We wore gray, THAT'S IT!

Layout your clothes for tomorrow morning if you choose to be on time. You'll want stuff, by stuff I do mean clothing, that matches so you don't look like a FREAKKKKKKKKKK. My mother never dressed me properly as a child. It was a sad sad sad sad point in my life. It's the reason why my socks never match. It's the reason my shirts inside out. It's the reason my jeans are too loose. It's the reason I've never gone out and bought a belt. It's the reason I'll never learn how to tie a tie and it's the reason everytime I see you in your bright yellow sunshine dress I simply DON'T MIND.

Forever ago there was a boy. This boy didn't have any toys. So he went to the dump. He found the dump. He decided to go to the dump and search for lost treasure. The dump was a land of treasure. Filled with goodies, baddies and tons of rodents.

Vinyl. Yum. Vinyl. Yum. Vinyl. Yum. Vinyl goes around and around and around. DID YOU KNOW, VINYL WAS USED ON LUNCH BOXES! LUNCH BOXES FOR CHRIST SAKE OMG.

I'll spin you right round baby right round like a record baby right round round round.

Fair enough they said, we'll take a bread and wine. Fair enough I said, I'll take your bread and wine. Let's go marching down and down into the ground like a bunch of ants returning a feast of garbage, soil and yeast.

My daughter refuses to call me daddy anymore. She said she out grew that years ago.


Porcupine. Hedgehog. Let's cross breed. Porcuhog. No. Hedgepine. No. Hedcupi. No. Hodcepig. No. Pinehog. Hogpine. Hogtie. I'm going to hogtie you until you figure out how to cross-breed a porcopine and hedgehog.

GOD DAMN. SO MUCH TO SHOW.

I met Willy Wonka once in London. He brought me to the candy shop....and well that's when he started to rap 50 cent to me, except I really don't think it was just him rappign so much as him saying.

Forever Young. Forever Dumb. Forever Mindless. Forever Young. Forever Niave. Forever FOREVER FOREVER FOREVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER. EVER EVEREVEREVEREVEREVERVERVEREVEREVER...try typing EVER with just two fingers over and over and over. EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER. well, three, thumb goes on space. E = middle finger. V R = pointer/index finger. IT'S FUN, CHALLENGING AND A TIME WASTER!


e.g. scooters, vacation, fall how dare you google tell me what to rant about.

Ctrl with: B = BOLD! BOLD BOLD BOLD oh... I = ITALIC like so THIS IS ITALIC ITALIAN p = publish but who wants to do that? Publishers, THAT'S WHO!


Join me down the river so we can go catch up with Huckleberry Finn. Teach him a lesson or two. Beat up that Tom Sawyer too. Damn him and his white washing, it's definitely no fun.

XXX = Alcohol. XXX = Porn. XXX = Vin Diesel. XXX = Ice Cube. That was Ice Cube right?

You know where to find me. Aisle 11 reading the Rolling Stone Magazine. Robert Downey Jr. on front.

Fast Forward. Rewind. Skip Chapter. Menu Button.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING DOWN THERE?! ENJOYING THE VIEW OF THE SKY?!

Interrobang !?

!? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !? !?!?!?!?!??!!!?!?!!?!!?!??!

I know this girl who got so fucking wasted and left the party in a rush. She ended up at the pond and found some ducks. Near the ducks was a huge toad. The toad just wouldn't shut its mouth, ribbiting ribbiting ribbiting a bunch. But she decided to kiss it hoping it'd be a prince.

SHE WAS WRONG.

Stinky Cheese Man & Other Fairly Stupid Tales.

Squids Will Be Squids no matter how hard you try to change their ways. That's just how nature is, man.

Okay enough nonsense for one night. TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY. TODAY IS A NEW DAY. YESTERDAY WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. CARRY ON MY WAYWARD SON!